my other side

me and my broken heart…

Written on September 29, 2005 – 6:00 am | by ruzell-masiglat

yuletide seasons of last year was accidentally the year for me and my friends to brought our own partner (a.k.a.lover) in our yearly christmas celebration, but unfortunately my suppose to be new lovestory ended so soon that it was not even last to become a real relationship. it was more of assumed relationship (or in other words mutual understanding) actually i wasn’t sure if that was mutual. but definitely i felt something for that guy and definitely i know i loved him. i am open to say this now because i can say that i am quite over about him. yes quite because from time to time i still wish i still have him. unfortunately he fell in love with his so called bestfriend. i am not bitter, but to share to you the truth i’ve felt that  he was my answered prayer but it turns out be someone’s else answered prayer. i thought he was the man of my dreams, i thought when i fall in love with a guy older than i am i can feel the security and sencerity of a real relationship or love that i am looking for in a long time. i never permit anyone to enter my world but my friends but when i met this guy i made an exemption. i tried to share my world with him and i’ve showed my affections and love to him i thought we are doing great. i dont know what happen, one day after he went to our house and met my family i suddenly felt his coldness and apathetic approached. the 24\7 texting that were doing became less and less then it stop. i never know what the real reason behind it, i can never ask becasue it was to late to asked but i know even though he never mentioned it, it was most probably about her. i always end up with someone like him someone who had no intention of loving me seriously. napapagod na yun puso umasa sa mga taong tulad nya lagi na lang pinaglalaruan yun nararamdaman ko. nananahimik naman ako dito sa isang tabi yung masaya na ako na ang buhay ko eh ang barkada at pamilya ko. tapos may dadating at may manggugulo tapos iiwan lang din naman ako. i am getting tired of the same story that happenning in my life sana ang wish ko lang seryosohin nyo naman ako kasi hindi naman ako nakikipagbiruan. pagod na ako…